Platonic Distancing, yes?

'You have a place in my heart no one else ever could have' - F. Scott Fitzgerald

Just like the tides in the ocean, people tend to come and go. Some with bad intents and some with life changing revelations. Some more swifter than others and some taking their own sweet time.

Either way, an aching feeling is bound to settle somewhere in our heart. An unfamiliar familiarity to be precise.

As if there's something inside twisting and turning when in reality, there's really nothing present.

Your friends think you're overreacting, that you should move on but even though you agree, there's still a part of you that is physically incapable of letting them go. How could you though when once there used to be a time when they were the only thing that kept you going. The only thing that you loved truly. The only person you ever wanted to keep forever.

You're left to to think if maybe it was something that you did, maybe you weren't as present as you were supposed to be, maybe you were too over yourself to have put it to an end. There's always going to be a longing for that feeling again. That felicity only they could give. As if a major part of your heart has been taken away at the blink of an eye.

Now no matter how hard you try, that scar will forever remain. Even if it's fully healed, the reminders won't ever leave. This in turn makes you afraid to explore. Afraid to open up. Afraid to trust and give someone your heart all over again. Maybe when people say 'Band-aids can never mend broken glass', they truly meant it. As stupid as it may sound, it's easier going back than stepping forward, though only temporarily. 'You miss the old version of them, not them themselves' truly. Yet even that is difficult to accept. Nevertheless, we must go on. Somehow, but we must.

Once we realise that everything but yourself is temporary, we tend to drift towards solitude. However, solitude isn't something just anyone can take on. It most definitely is not for the light hearted. It requires time, adjustments and finding peace within. He who finds solace in solitude and is well off on his own, might easily be one of the greatest men on earth.

For me personally, it has never been easy. Though most know I frequently romanticise watching sunsets and going on walks alone, I already know it wouldn't ever be possible as to be left with nothing but your thoughts is scary to say the least. Moreover, it's not exactly wrong to be dependent on some relationships you treasure, but my advice, don't be in a state of complete emotional dependency. You never know what might happen next and what awaits you at the very end.

P.S : We had officially reached 1 year on October 2nd (had exams during that). Anyways, Happy 1 year guys ^^